I feel like there is something wrong with me. Like there always has been
something very wrong with me. I’m so spaced out most of the time, and then
suddenly I’m so emotional. I so anxious all of the time. I want to fall in love
so much. My relationships never work. It seems to be me that is the problem. Why
will nobody love me? I am losing my motivation to study or do anything. I don’t
want to become depressed again. I don’t think I’m depressed right not, but I’m
unhappy. Very unhappy. I think only love has ever made me feel happy. Or what I
thought was love. Why am I so fucking different?
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It is the confession, not the priest, that gives us absolution.
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February 12th, 2010 at 6:12 pm
There’s nothing wrong with you. Sounds like you just need to learn to be happy being single. Relationships take work, it’s not like you will automatically be happy 24/7 once you have a partner. I’ve had a boyfriend for 2 years and yes it’s been good, but there’s also been a lot of shit during that time too - that’s just the up and down of life. You can’t let the “down” times get to you.
Why do you feel unhappy with your life right now? Because you don’t have someone? Surround yourself with friends and try to get out more. If you are unhappy you won’t bring positive people into your life, and that includes potential partners. Just focus on school and try not to let your grades slip. The right person will come along when you are emotionally ready, not when you are anxious and nervous.