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i confess i have never had a crush on a professor. i - almost - feel left out…

You have been my mentor. Our connection and chemistry is difficult to put in
words. Though i’d very much like to see you again this attraction hasn’t faded.
You offered further assistance and to meet. I think I’d feel awkward. This
isn’t a typical crush like I assumed. I’m not in love with you but these
feelings are more than innocent. Still my confusion over why I am attracted
remains. The age gap is not drastic but you have more life experience. I want
to keep in touch, perhaps we should get together… or perhaps I shouldn’t let
myself get too close. If the latter is the case how do I maintain occasional
friendly contact(email) without hurting your feelings? Your guidance could
further my career and I genuinely care for you. My fear is burning bridges.
Fuck….

Ever since my best friend got herself a perfect boyfriend, I’ve been more lonely
and upset than ever. I’ve never had a reason to be mad or to look at her with
disdain, but I almost feel I will soon. I can feel the wedge between us
growing.

Here’s a sick twist on the professor crush. I recently uncovered a secret about
my former crush. He places ads on craigslist, specifically looking for sex with
undergraduates. He avoids those in the department he teaches in but I think
this will bite him in the ass. For example, he may not get the tenure he
wants.

Am I a hypocrite?

Sometimes I wish I weren’t a woman because dammit they’re so irritating. But
then, if I were a man, I’d be screwed because then I’d have either more whiny
women or crying gay men.

And why does it seem like there are so many “sensitive” guys nowadays?
Not to be mean, I understand we all have feelings and what not, but geeze can
everyone shut their crying vaginas?

I think I just need to get laid.

If he only knew…

That I dress sexy just for him, to see if I can get a reaction.
That it excites me when I see the bulge, the sweating, the stuttering.
That I play games with him, seeing how long he will keep eye contact.
That I notice the lingering gazes, the knowing smiles, the private jests.
That I always play it cool, casual, friendly because I do value his mentorship.

That I ache for him so badly; if he would let down his moral guard for one
night, I would fuck him.
That he is my sex symbol of academia.

But he probably doesn’t know, and it’s probably better he doesn’t.

But still…if I knew how he felt…just maybe…

an old friend/hookup buddy just came back into my life apologizing for something
a long time ago that broke up our friendship (nothing terrible it just became
awkward) now hes always telling me how beautiful i am and how he misses me and
hopes we can pick up where we left off..my friends think its his way of saying
he’s interested at least for some action while were all home for once but i’m
not really sure..its confusing..any thoughts?

Nothing uncommon, but I am immensely attracted to my music professor.

I want nothing more than to please him. It’s lust, I know. Yet still I
respect him and admire him. Everything about him mesmerizes me. Yet, I have
no desire to pursue a relationship or anything because of course it its
practically impossible.

But if I could just please him, because that would please me so…

He is a young, very smart chemistry professor straight from the top school. I
used to answer his questions in class and used to make eyes contact with him.
Somehow recently i get so conscious when he looks at me or when he is around.
There are nights that i thought of him..These feelings hurt a lot bc i feel
like a loser. It seems like a dream that can never be reached..He is so
smart..so handsome..(although I dont look bad nor dumb either, but compare to
him, i am nothing)..I thought of graduating, and then get a higher degree so at
least i am not so far off and then come back telling him about my feelings..even
then..he might not be interested…should i give it a try?? or should i just
move on and bury this deep inside of me forever?..the feelings are painful..I
tried not to think of him, and move on…but he is so charming that i couldnt
resist..

What do you want from me? Why did you take an interest in me? Is this a subtle,
friendly, game of 21 questions? You’re genuine in discussions. I wish I knew if
you were looking for something more to clear the air. It’s possible I’m
attracted to you. The degree of attraction is confusing. I don’t know if I want
you physically. I’m scared I do. It’s hard to imagine myself dating you. This
would be less confusing if we communicated our wants. One of us should come
clean. Unless you drop some serious hints, it won’t be me.