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I think I am seriously going insane on this new stupid birth control.

I cant get into my classes next semester. And I just want my schedule to work
out.

Annddd…I spent the last four days locked in a room studying and being
isolated.

I just want it to be summer. And I want to be graduated.

So. School, anyone?

Yeah, thought we were all over it.

It’s seriously not fun anymore. Sigh.

I feel so alone.

I have to break up with my boyfriend tonight because I have feelings for someone
else. I’m scared to do it because my boyfriend is such a great guy, and I don’t
want things to be uncomfortable.

I have no friends at college.
Im not even stretching the truth.
I talk to my roomate…and thats it. And when she leaves every weekend…it
sucks.
I had tons of friends at home, but I just cant seem to find anyone here.

I seriously just want to go home so badly.

I’m freaking out with my workload right now. My thesis and a bunch of papers
are due next week. I don’t know how I’m going to get it all done.

I didn’t get into medical school this year, either. I’m going to try again and
apply again in the fall, but it’s so discouraging. I feel like all the work
I’ve done will not pay off, or won’t be worth it.

I just want to hide under my covers and not come out until the end of April….

I’m 20 and I’m starting to fall for a 30 year old grad student pretty hard. We
met off of our univ. message forum for prof ratings, etc. and we used to always
talk on AIM from 8pm to about 2am every single day. We haven’t talked in quite
awhile, but we still post messages and flirt on the message board and everyone
thinks there’s something going on. No one has seen him in person and no one
knows that we talked for 5 months off the boards. I can’t ask him why he hasn’t
been on AIM on our univ. forum because I know that he wants to remain anonymous
on the board (it would be awkward for him if he knew his students were posting
on there too), and I want to respect that.

I wish I would’ve asked for his number and asked to hang out with him. The
last time I ever felt this way about a guy was my first high school crush. He
makes me laugh, he makes me smile and I wonder what he’s doing at this exact
moment. He’s told me the same thing also. I care about him , I just wish he
knew that. All I have is his name and the apartment he lives at and his
facebook is dead. I am at a dead end.

I keep falling asleep on the road or any other place randomly. I think I might
have some form of temporary-narcolepsy. But because I’m a hypochondriac
usually, nobody will believe me, including my doctor. But this is something I’m
not being paranoid about… it’s a real, dangerous situation, not only for
myself but for others… I’m not like this at all times, only when my body gets
overworked or I’m overstressed. It will go on for months at a time. And It’s not
like I don’t get enough sleep because I do… I get like 8 to 12 hours a night.
Something is just WRONG somewhere down the line.

I’m totally burned out and SO ready to graduate, but I’m terrified of what comes
next.

My life is perfect. I have the job I went to college for, met the most amazing
man whom I will soon marry, and have the closest and most supportive family and
friends a girl could ever ask for. Yet somehow I feel like I’m being set up for
a fall. I’m only 24… it’s not supposed to be that easy. I feel guilty to be
so fortunate at such an early age, when there are people still in their 40’s
and 50’s who can get it together. It scares the shit out of me that someday
it’s going to catch up to me and it’s all going to collapse.