CollegeConfessional.net

I met someone new…well not really “new”… I knew him as an acquaintance in
college a few years ago, we’ve been talking more lately, and he asked me out
for Friday…

I’m nervous..my last few ‘dates’ didn’t turn out as planned…and I ended a 2+
year relationship last year, so I haven’t been on a proper date in a long
while…

I’m trying not to move things too fast or push him too hard, and he seems
nice…but I know part of me automatically looks for the “negative”, and
worries about what may happen down the road…(my parents may not like him, etc
etc…)….

Why can’t I let things just progress naturally? I hate being nervous over
something I should be excited for!

Hanging out my ass. You told me we’d hang out during the summer and all that
crap. In fact, you kept on bugging me about it during the final weeks of class.
And yet when i called you, you just brushed me off and haven’t been responding
to my messages. I can’t believe i’m still thinking about you.

i have been talking to this guy online who lives across the universe it seems
for 8 years now we met up finally and had sex a few times. now i cant stop
thinking about him… he calls me every now and then, i wish i was with him.

I am not friends with my best friend anymore. I should feel lousy, and I do.
But another part of me feels so good and so free.

Well, you have a girlfriend now. I’m glad you’re happy, but I don’t know why
this news makes me so upset.

I feel like I fucked it up, you said you didn’t want to speak to me anymore, I
was coming on too strong, I was too ’sexual’ for you. I wanted to keep talking
to you and remain friends, but I never heard back from you.

But you wrote on a blog website about how you JUST met this girl a few days ago
and how smitten and completely engrossed you are with her, and how you can’t
stand to be apart from her?? If I said the things you’re saying about her after
just one week to a man, he would run for the hills.

And I was coming on too strong? Are you kidding me? Tell me, what did I
honestly do wrong then? Maybe this was meant to be, maybe you are too clingy
and I lucked out after all…

I just wish I didn’t feel like shit, like I did something stupid and wrong in
pushing you away…

Once, in band camp …

I want to get liposuction on my chin and my arms, but my boyfriend would never
marry me if I did. He doesn’t believe in anything “unnatural.” Sadly, this is
all I think about every day. I’m not an overweight girl either — I am within
the “healthy” weight range — I’ve just always had a problem with a full face
and large arms and it makes me feel inadequate. But then I think about all
these people who are grossly disfigured from tragic events like car accidents
or heroic feats like rescuing someone from a fire, and then I think about how
blessed I am to have a healthy, physically able body, and I feel so vain and
shallow. What’s funny is that I look past the physical with everyone and
love/celebrate people unconditionally, yet I can’t look past my own
shortcomings. My boyfriend loves me for who I am, yet I cannot fully love
myself. I don’t know how to get past this, and I fear it will plague me until I
finally do something about it (like liposuction). No matter how little I eat or
how much I exercise, I can’t seem to shrink the fat in those places…

I’ve been enamoured with a professor for the past god knows how long. Since I
got into college. I’m a graduate student now, have been for some time, and I
still can’t get him out of my mind. People used to tell me we had a special
unspoken connection and that they could feel it whenever they were around us,
but we never pursued anything. He was married and he knew I had a boyfriend. I
couldn’t do something that horrible and neither could he. Maybe all these
people were mistaken and we didn’t have anything between us. Or maybe we really
did have a connection. All I know is that I will always wonder “what if.”

I have no idea what I want to do in school, but I already told all my teachers
I’m getting into a certain track. I have been accepted for it, but now I’m
questioning if I really want to do it. I know I shouldn’t care what they think
or if I’m disappointing them, since it is my life and I am the only one who can
decide things, but I really look up to these people.

So, I posted under May 10th/07. Asking why guys take women’s numbers and never
call them…

So, I emailed this guy after several days, asking if he was still interested in
getting together sometime, he emailed me back right away saying yes, he’s just
been busy lately. Fine. I told him to let me know when he’s free.

A few days later, he did. He told me what day he was free, if that was ok with
me. He even offered to drive up to my area since it was ‘a quicker drive’ than
meeting up at school.

I show up at the restaurant on Thursday…and wait…and wait…NO show. I
called his cell and it kept going straight to the machine.

I feel like such a gullible fool and an idiot. All weekend too his phone just
goes straight to the machine. He deleted me off MSN.

Why the hell would someone make plans like that and then bail?? He suggested
the date and everything too. He seemed so cute and nice too, said he was
single.

I don’t see anything wrong with 2 attractive people meeting up for a simple
drink/lunch date to get to know each other - apparently this was too much for
him, or it was a big joke from the beginning. What the hell did I do wrong??

(On the plus side, though, I got my friend to flood his voicemail and email box
with annoying empty messages.)